fallenfaces

You said you’re not a kid..but why did you let your pathetic-nerdy cousin manipulate you? let him ruin us. Now I know, it’s all about him controling you from the very start. I didn’t see it coming. It caught me by surprise. How could I, you blinded me. His motives are clear now, though. He ruin other peoples’ lives coz he has none.  His using yours coz he can’t make his own. He did not succeed ruining my barkada, how cud he?!. We’ve been together for years. And us,.. barely a month.I’m not dumbfounded at all. You’ve fell for that. He is crushed so he takes it out on me. I am rotten, I am filthy,,, If he is to be believed. But you alone could know the truth behind all this shit. He had done this, coz I turned him down. It is you that I took you coz I love you, after all That’s what you wanted.

-" I won’t be the one who’s going to let you down. Maybe you’ll get what you want this time around."  -" I must confess it can feel good to feel pain, like breaking waves and getting caught in the rain."
and i quote.

But I really wish you’re happy. We had our time, and it was fun.
As for him,
He can never be happy,He can never have the girl he wanted, I assure you both for that.
He won.You let him.But I didn’t lost.
On the day like today, you’d be crazy not to want me to teach you the way. You should wake up before the wrath comes. You’ ve chosen heaven over the earth and me, I should take off. Now help me pray for the death of everything new. Do yourself a favor and ask yourself why did you made the transition. This is the time I stopped lying down for I won’t play dead anymore.
This is not a perfect circle after all , [ like the ring you slid through my finger nor the beaded thing you let me put in your wrist ]
but it’s you who held the lost chain.

So don’t get infuriated everytime I call you a kid,,because  You Are!…You have justified for that. But then again, that’s the reason I fell for you.

Deal with it! Face me like the man you said you are. Or just linger without a purpose…run her like a blade through my heart.

I like it when the sun burns this pale skin,
When it paints freckles on this cheeks and chin.
I like it when the rain drenches my clothes
and when this fuzzy hair get soaked.

I like it when the zephyr hits this ear,
Pounding waves and a heartbeat, few things I hear
I like it when my coffee is bittersweet,
I like it when the puppy licks my feet.

I like it when the sand be the bed where I lie,
When I stare straight up to the starry-dark sky.
But what I like most is when you lie with me,
Then we’ll both be dreaming of whatever it could be. ;p

[when euphoria blew away the darkclouds shrouding me]

[i was sipping my coffee in a roadside cafe,sitting along with Lala,Mina, B-ja and Jhang.having a usual convy,then you came up in our discussion.Flashbacks..Rewind..History..Then you got me again, just when  I thought I am leaving my life.Realizing I'm still stuck,I hate myself for this,and I always will!]-hours later,i came up with this,here it goes,,,

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Why put me in a battle that wasn’t mine to fight?

Then you flee without much of a right

I did heard you say "What a horrible sight,

much to my delight!"

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Go ahead feed on my fright,

For I still need your heart of blight

All doom and solace I did not foresight

Grab onto me and take a bite.

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It wasn’t your fault, tried to stay out of it

Just your ego at work, tried to match misfits

So in this pretty grim performance

We really couldn’t stand a chance.

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Discern what I hold true

No logical argument can push through

A peak on my mind, what I really want to do

Is simply "knock the devil out of you!"

what has gotten into me?..i’ve found myself unconciously rhyming,having a blank stare towards a shut window of different realm.Justifying..reasoning..all nonsense.but i’ve seen some truth you can find easy to conclude.

Every motherfucker had their claws on a prey.

Every screw-ups had a scapegoat to blame.

Every fucked-up person,,has a fucked up reason

For a prick comes a whore.

For a saint, there’s a sailor.

I just wish i can go back to this old self.It isn’t funny seeing my concious on a bloodbath.

Spare me the theatrics

I won’t play in the charade

I have mastered your mindgames,

So, Go figure! God of Lames.

                     Don’t try to psych me out,

                     I know what this is all about

                     You’ve gone way too far from the threshold,

                     You’ve leave me catatonic and stonecold.

Why let me bleed out?

while you sucked my life out.

Retribution is what I seek,

The honor of victory is mine to keep.

where would you go if ur trapped in a labyrinth of tangled fantasies? would you keep running still,stay grounded or continue to wander? Is it not a matter of choice?

-To wreck a life is to give birth.For there’s no defeat in dying,might as well die trying.

-To know my mind is mine and not yours for the taking.So this sinking feeling,i will be living.

-To see the signs,ignore the fear,listen to what you can’t hear.

-To have you strip away a collection of thoughts,which your passiveness had brought.

-To dug deep into my unconscious state of mind. Throw all the dirt that you can find.

-To lead logic your way.Rationalize whatever I say.

-To keep my feet dangling,but loosen the rope on my neck clinging.

-To wipe my slate clean,though it will continue writing.